Tuesday, October 26, 2010

well :O

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...

*just a dream - nelly*

Don't let haters keep me off my grind
Keep my head up i know i'll be fine
Keep fighting until i get there
When i'm down and i feel like giving up

*whip my hair - willow smith*

im not afraid, im not afraid
to take a stand, to take a stand
everybody, everybody
come take my hand, come take my hand

we'll walk this road together through the storm
whatever weather, cold or warm
just lettin' u know ur not alone
holla if you feel like you've been down the same road

* not afraid - eminem*

the lyrics just give me this one kind of vibe~
i dont knw whether its confidence, reassurance, calmness or what,
the lyrics just flow and is constantly on my mind now~

relax and open up~

a song by, Annyeong Bada, an indie korean band~
this song is just purely awesomeeee!
seriously got to check it out!

fading starlight (click the link)

The night of the night
Love with people that care
The night of the night
Back in the warmth of past memories
The night of the night
Meanwhile, in the folds of his mother
The night of the night
The night of the night
Stars light falls


Sparkling memories surfaced
Away in a shabby appearance
Urban skies
My heart, is bleak

Very common pain
So many tears
Black in the sky
Stars light falls


City of billions into the night
Back to billions of tears
Billions of my mind
How could you grow up abandoned

Billions of light between stars
Fans hailing the top
Billions of my mind
How could you grow up abandoned


when i hear the music and the melody
i feel at ease like everything falls into place
sometimes theres just this one kind of feeling where....
when u hear a music or something,
ur just in the ZONE~ hahaaa

so open up and feel the music~
seriously u'll be in the zone for sure! hahaaa

architecture so far~

okay, so far ~ well, urrm im okay~
i guessss~
so basically i get it nw...
architecture is tough!

well, this sem im taking design1~
its a new subject , its interesting and kinda challenging...
the subject is tough, the toughest so far....
i've been through a lot because of design :s
i've learned a lot coz of it
basically design gets to me~

im not saying that i loath architecture now that i've been through design1~
im not saying that i'll quit the programme~
its just that nw i kinda knw what its like going to be for another 3years of my degree :s

owh~ just thinking about it, i just hope that i can make through it!
so here i am on my 2nd year~
JUST starting to learn and get to knw architecture a lil' bit better~

design1 is like literally an intro towards the world of architecture
its like learning art , knw the colours n shape n such
its basically the abc of architecture~
eventhough its an intro, its tough!
its basically mentally and emotionally tough!!!!
every time we had a critique session and submission,
some of us cried, relieved and just like kinda shaken a bit....

the feeling when the lecturers dont like what your doing,
the feeling when your mock models that you had worked so hard for being crushed by them, the feeling of them ripping your presentation boards and just doodle something on your boards using PERMENANT MARKERS, the feeling when the lecturers actually dont want to hear anything you say because he/she thinks that the idea sucks (doesnt even give us a chance), oooowh! the feeling when their expression changed! the feeling when they just kinda make a statement and just doesnt give you a break at all~
oowh the feeling i tell u, its kinda degrading, it feels like emptiness , failure and just purely disappointment~
its just a feeling that you dont wanna hold on to... let it be said like that~
luckily we have each other (my studiomates = kreinova),
we've been through a lot together within this 3 semester so far~

nw im at the end of my semester,
its exam week nw~
then its review day!
starting this sem, our finale review will be like a public exhibition event...
aiyoyo meaning that anyone, and i mean ANYONE , like parents , siblings, friends, even our neighbours can come to our finale review day~
its open to the public~

but seriously, what i had in my mind when MR.F (our studio-master) told us that its gonna be a public display, i was like, "aiyoyo, this cant be, malu gilaaa nnti~", im not ready because im not confident enough to show my work to my parents.
its not like, im not proud of my work, its just that....
i think i could hv done better~ i dont knw i just dont feel at ease when i knw that eventually they will see it~

i dont knw!~
just writing about it nw makes my heartbeat beats faster than usual,
aiyoyo *sweating* i dont knw, i think i just hv to deal with it eventually~
but... *tengah gelabah* uuuuuuu~

later i would post some snippets of my works....
i need some break uuurgh~

Friday, October 22, 2010


well, i think im gonna start blogging again~
hoa-yeah!! hahaaa